The energy of my tantric initiation into the practice of the wrathful dakini Simhamukha follows me into sleep…
Part of a series recounting the backstory to the dream of the parsonage, first written down in spring 2023. https://katharina-kaintz.com/en/the-parsonage-story/the-pond/
Before me rises an enormous black sword — symbols engraved into its hilt.
I am aware that I am dreaming.
Laboriously, I fight to summon enough awareness to actively steer the dream. Because something is expected of me, here and now.
But what?
Of course!
In the dream, I transform into the lion-headed dakini Simhamukha. The image is unsteady — I have never practised it while awake.
During the day’s ceremonies, I needed all my concentration just to work my way through the Tibetan text, line by line, hour by hour. initiation-and-the-dakini-simhamukha/
As unfamiliar as it is to suddenly be a wrathful dakini, just as strange does the hilt of the sword feel in my hands.
As I grip it tighter, I become aware of what I have to do.
The Nepalese lama demonstrated it a few hours earlier, during the ceremony: he stabbed a small black sword — identical to the enormous one whose hilt I now grip in the dream — into an empty metal bowl.
The text said that Simhamukha kills all enemies and crushes them to dust.
Fully focused, I raise the sword to head height.
Something lies between my feet. I feel it move.
It is alive!
Suddenly a wild energy floods through me!
With all my strength, I plunge the sword into whatever lies beneath me on the ground.
It is a grey, misty shape, I see, as the blade’s tip passes through it and bores into the earth.
Suddenly the image shifts: I am staring at a wall of brown clay.
Only a second passes, then there is a crack — and an enormous wave bursts through the wall.
Spray flies!
Water roars and foams all around me — and at the same time, an endless feeling of liberation washes over me!
When I wake the next morning, I feel good.
Extremely good!
The uncomfortable pressure behind my eyes is gone…
In this series: ← Part Three: Initiation and the Dakini Simhamukha
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